Thursday, April 23, 2009

Ouchy With a Plan

(FYI, this is TMI!)
My HSG was today. But my docs don't really call it that, they call it a saline ultrasound. They use saline and an ultrasound instead of dye. She told me that it doesn't make sense to put radioactive dye up in ya and give you a bunch of x-rays when you are trying to get pregnant. Makes sense to me too. 
So I get on the table and assume the position. HUGE, cold speculum in, then the cleaning of the cervix which felt like a pap. Unfortunately my cervix was not cooperating. She had a hard time getting through. So she had to use the speculum to try to move my uterus down since mine is anterior and almost straight up. That was not fun. I know she was trying to do it gently, but that was the worst cramps I have ever had. I have to say though, I was expecting worse. It felt like bad cramps and the bad ones went away pretty quick after it was done. She told me I may have to drink a bunch of water and fill my bladder to help things along. As soon as she said that, I started praying, "Oh Lord, make it go in! I don't want to wait. I just want to get it over with!" And then she said, "Oh! There it is!" OK, Great! Take that huge speculum out!!! I am done with that! Then the US wand with the goop and the condom on (made me laugh again) went in. I don't think I will ever get used to that!
So then she started squirting cold saline and it started pouring out-weird feeling! Fallopian tubes are clear! Praise God! BUT-to my surprise I have a uterine fibroid. Dang it-that means surgery and putting off the treatments. If I leave it in, the embryo has less surface area to adhere to. She said I may have had it all along, or all the Clomid caused it. (I knew I couldn't take that stuff unscathed!) So I need to wait, take some more tests to see if I ovulated this month (uh, probably not) then start Provera to get a period, do BCP's (birth control pills) to thin my uterine lining and have surgery June 3. Then after that, if all goes well, we will start Clomid with injectables.
I am disappointed we have to wait even longer to start treatments, but it is also nice to have a plan. I haven't had a plan in a long time-wait-probably never. It was nice to have JJ (husband) there with me. He thought he couldn't come for a second, but last night he told me he was able to make it. That would have been weird to hear I needed surgery and be alone. He is great, and so good to me. I am grateful to have him.
I recently read a book called "A Few Good Eggs" by Maureen Regan and Julie Vargo-check them out at http://www.afewgoodeggs.com/index.htm . They said something really great that stuck with me. To paraphrase, they said that you will beat infertility. I really liked that. No matter what, you will have children, whether it be from treatments or adoption, it will happen. I found that so encouraging! I recommend the book, I really liked it, and it is humorous too. That helps! We all need to laugh once in a while.

7 comments:

  1. That quote from "A Few Good Eggs" is something that both Shelby and I have reminded ourselves about in the last 5 years of TTC'ing. It's a great thing to keep in mind.

    Hang in there

    Mr. Shelby (from ICLW)

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  2. What a wonderful outlook. It can be soooo very difficult to stay positive and optimistic sometimes. Wishing you all the best.

    *ICLW*

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  3. What a great quote....I will remember that. A little humour takes us a long way...My HSG was done with the pretty dye, the kind that stings a bit inside...dang I should have known what you described in this post...

    A fibroid? Ooooh...Sorry!

    *ICLW*

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  4. Glad to hear your tubes are clear! Thats always good news! I am doing clomid/follistim IUI's right now and and currently 9dpiui #3 and will be testing thurs.!

    Best of luck to you!!

    Happy ICLW : )

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  5. glad you had a better HSG than I did. I wasn't well informed by my doc before the procedure about exactly what it entailed.
    ICLW

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  6. It sounds like your HSG was a little less of a gong show than mine. I'm glad you have a plan in place and know where you're heading!

    ICLW

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