Tuesday, September 22, 2009

CD 3, Bravelle day #1

Today I had my baseline ultrasound and labs, and everything looks like it's a go. The nurse asked if I had the consents with me and I totally forgot about it. The problem is we both have to be there for them to witness us signing them, so coordinating that was becoming difficult. Then eventually I forgot about them. Then she said I can't start until we get those signed. I had a little freak out in the office. Another setback??!!
Then I realized JJ was working close to the office today. He hasn't worked in that area for awhile, so the chances of that happening were slim. So I called him, and he happened to be driving very close to the office. He was able to stop by and sign with me within about 10 minutes of calling him! If that isn't God, I don't know what is!
The other thing that we praised God for was that I finally had no balance at the office. I have been waiting for what seems like a lifetime for insurance to pay them, and it was becoming embarrassing every time I was there saying that they should be paying any time now. Other than dealing with infertility, dealing with this insurance thing has been the most stressful thing I have had to deal with.
So I injected myself this evening for the first time. Luckily it was a small needle, so the poke was not bad at all. It did sting when it went in, and I can tell something happened there now, but it doesn't really hurt. It was weird mixing and drawing up my own medication. I am used to doing it for other patients, not me. I had to just not think about what I was doing so I could just do it really quick. I couldn't give myself time to think about it or I think I would freak out. I decided to do the injections in the room where our baby's room will be when he or she comes. I don't want it all out in the open as a constant reminder, and I want to know that room is good for something right now. I can tell the baby later what I did in that room so they could be a part of our family.
I am really hoping this will work for us. I am so ready for it to happen. Next month marks 3 years of trying for a baby for us. Not a good anniversary, but hopefully we can get some good news next month, instead of thinking about what October means for us. I still trust in you Lord; I know you can do it!


  1. Great news -- glad you're on your way!

  2. OMG--I am balling my eyes out right now. First of all, that is so great that you have such good news to report! But even more, Heather, the fact that you are doing the shots in the baby's room is just beautiful! When I had to leave Autumn at the hospital, I used to use her room to pump for similar reasons. Tears are streaming down my face right now. You are on your way to becoming a mom! With such a loving thoughtful attitude like that, you are so ready. Your baby will be so blessed to have a mom like you that is just waiting for them to arrive. I can't wait to see your little blessing! Love you like crazy, big sis. Love you.

  3. I am so glad that things worked out for you and that you are able to get started this cycle. And I also love that you are doing injections in the "baby room" - I do the exact same thing...it is just a good reminder to me of why we do what we do!