Monday, July 12, 2010

False Hope

Yesterday I believed I was in early labor. That is what I was told, and what the signs said. But it left, fizzled out, stopped. I am so disappointed! I am so ready to have this kid. I have been having a really hard time being comfortable at night when I am trying to sleep and just a lot of pain in my joints (I think because of the extra water).
I didn't sleep very good the night before. And on Sunday I just wasn't feeling quite myself and was feeling a little extra pressure "down there". After church we went to lunch and I had some spicy buffalo wings (in hopes of bringing on labor in fact!) As lunch went on I got more uncomfortable with more pressure. As we walked to the car, I almost felt like he was going to fall out and (TMI!) like I had to have a huge BM! We were about halfway home when I got so uncomfortable I didn't want to sit anymore and the pressure just kept on building. I called a friend, and she thought I might be starting into labor.
When we got home within about a half hour I started contracting and then they became regular and pretty quick in coming. We started timing them and were shocked to find them about 2 minutes apart. They hadn't really been painful, so that was making me confused as to what it was. I called my doula and she was equally puzzled. She suggested that I try to nap, so I laid down and tried, but I was unable to snooze. They slowed a bit and became irregular when I laid down initially, but returned to every 2 minutes after about 20 minutes. So at that point I was convinced this was the real thing. I called my doctor to get her thoughts on what to do and what she thought it was and she believed me to be in early labor, but wanted me to stay home until the contractions got really painful. That never really happened. I did start to have some vaginal and back pain, but it never got very painful where I couldn't walk through them or anything. All the while I was trying to get some sleep, which wasn't really happening.
Eventually I was able to fall asleep for about an hour and when I woke up I realized that the contractions were much less intense and not coming regularly anymore. I was unable to sleep anymore after that timing them again and trying to figure out what was happening. After a while they just fizzled out, almost stopping completely.
I was so shocked that this didn't turn into real labor. I am disappointed and embarrassed. We called so many people, and now we are all disappointed. My mood today has been pretty depressed, but I am working through it and feeling better already. I have to remind myself of my prayer that the baby comes when he is ready. I just know that I am ready for sure. It's just hard to come down off that high of possibly meeting our little one soon!
I go to the doctor tomorrow and we will see if this fiasco made anymore cervical change, which I am hoping all that work did something! And if so, will lead to a shorter labor when the real thing comes!

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