Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Nervous and Grateful

My meds came today and I am nervous. I am nervous this won't work. More importantly, if it doesn't, am I still going to be sane? Will I be OK? Will I still be able to function as a normal human being (whatever that is)? I'm nervous all this testing and follie checks I will need will interrupt my life and my work. I'm getting annoyed with it, really annoyed.

BUT, I am grateful. For my husband, the love of my life. He is my biggest supporter, and I know he will be with me again this cycle. For my home. We have a great home. It may not be the biggest or the flashy-ist, but it's ours and it's comfortable and it will fit our baby nicely I think. I'm grateful for my health. Yes, I have IF issues, but compared to what I see on a daily basis at work, my health is great-I credit God for that.

I am eternally grateful for my Savior Jesus Christ. He has saved me from the punishment for sin, he is an even bigger supporter than my husband, he loves me unconditionally, he cares about my situation. I KNOW he will give us children. I believe it will all my heart. God works best in impossible situations. This situation is no exception. How big is my God? He parted the sea, he made dead men rise, he heals cancer, he comforts those who mourn, he gives grace when we don't deserve it, he leads and directs us, he heals the barren woman. Do it God-show off! Show your glory so I can brag about you to everyone I know.

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